Prayer: Surrendering It All To God

Hey God,

It’s Caty.

So lots of things are happening. My Mom is having surgery on her knee tomorrow and then next month she is having brain surgery.

Honestly, I am really scared.

I just want her to be safe, get better, be okay, recovery well, and get better. I am worried about her God. I know you don’t like me worrying but I am. So I just pray that you put your arms around her. Keep her safe during both surgeries, help her recover well, help her feel better, and just love her God. She needs you right now. She is dealing with her surgeries, her pain, and her parents bad health. She needs you Lord so please go to her and be close to her.

I am really struggling to: I am still battling unbearable physically pain from fibromyaglia. But I may not even have fibromyaglia. I may arthritics or I may have liver problems. I am really hoping it’s arthritics and not my liver because I DON’T want liver problems. If I do have arthritics maybe that would explain why all the fibromyaglia medicines don’t work on me. Maybe I could get on arthritics medicine in feel better. I pray you help me not to worry and give my doctors guidance to know what to do.

I also can’t sleep at night. Probably because I am worrying so much. I pray that at night you give me the rest and peace I need to finally get some sleep.

I am struggling with depression. Depression and unbearable physically pain DON’T go together so I pray you help me have a good mood so I can handle the unbearable physically pain better. Because God, when I am depressed, I am a mess. Right now I need to be strong for my family so I pray you give me your strength, joy, rest, peace, and happiness.

God, I can’t do life without you. I know I have been struggling with my faith and trust issues with you. But God I need you. Please become closer to me than ever before. Help US work through everything TOGETHER! I know I can’t do this on my own so I am putting my faith, hope, trust, and surrendering everything to you Lord.

Please be with all my friends, family, followers, readers, and just help them Lord. We all need you Lord so please help us all.

I do thank you for all the good things in my life like: me doing well in all my college classes, my amazing pets, family, friends, followers, readers, and that thing I have been keep a secret 😉 please help that thing work out for your will.

I thank you for listening to me, for Your Son, and all my many blessings.

In Jesus’s name, I pray, Amen!

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Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed it. Thank you so much for reading! I hope you have a blessed day. I love you so much!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

Devotional: You Matter

You Matter.

Maybe right now, you feel pretty bad about yourself. Maybe you hate yourself. Or maybe some people in your life have made you feel worthless.

YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS, HOPELESS, USELESS, UGLY, OR ANYTHING BAD. YOU MATTER. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. YOU ARE A DAUGHTER OR SON OF THE KING OF KINGS AND HE KNOWS YOU ARE AMAZING!!

In this world, it’s easy to get down on yourself. For years I have struggled with body imagine, hating myself, feeling worthless, hopeless, and useless.

Those are lies from the Devil!

You hear lies from the Devil from a mental illness (I have many), some horrible people in your life telling you lies, from social media, or from magazines.

Hear this:

Social media, magazines, and tv shows LIE!

NO ONES life is that great, that wonderful, or that perfect.

On social media people post the highlights of their lives. You don’t see pictures of someone crying in the bathroom.

If social media makes you feel bad, get off of it! I did a break off social media for a while and it really helped my mental state. Now when I look on it I don’t compare myself to other but be happy for others and all the good things in their life. If you still compare yourself to others: get off social media, stop reading magazines, cut out the negative people in your life, and stop watching tv if all you do is compare yourself.

But just because some great things are happening in other people’s lives, doesn’t mean great things aren’t happening for you! No matter what your life looks like, you always have Jesus to count on.

Jesus loves you, forgives you, comforts you, encourages you, guides you, gives you grace, gives you freedom, gives you rest, gives you peace, helps you, and so much more In Jesus: you matter and your life matters.

In Jesus, You are:

You are beautiful. (Psalm 45:11)

You are unique. (Psalm 139:13)

You are loved. (Jeremiah 31:3)

You are special. (Ephesians 2:10)

You are created with a purpose. (Jeremiah 29:11)

You are cared for. (Ephesians 3:17-19)

You are lovely. (Daniel 12:3)

You are precious. ( 1 Corinthians 6:20)

You are strong. (Psalm 18:35)

You are important. (1 Peter 2:9)

You are forgiven. ( Psalm 103:12)

You are protected. (Psalm 121:3)

You are chosen. (John 15:16)

You are mine. (Isaiah 43:1)

You matter. You can do this. I believe in you. God believes in you. I love you. God loves you. So go to Him today and remember in Him, you matter!

Verses:

“’I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. ‘” Psalm 63:3-5

“’Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord , who has compassion on you. ‘” Isaiah 54:10

“’See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure. ‘” 1 John 3:1-3

“’For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, ‘” Ephesians 1:4-8

Prayer:

Dear God,

Help me remember that I matter. Help me to remember who I am in you. Help me to stop comparing myself to others, love myself, love you, and love the life you have given me. Help me to build a close relationship with you. Please grab my hand and help me walk through life with you by my side.

I thank you for all my many blessings and for Your Son.

In Jesus’s name, I pray, Amen!

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Hey beautiful!❤️

I hope you are having a wonderful day! Thank you so much for reading! I love you so much❤️

What would you like to see next on my blog? More about me, more about writing, more Devotionals? Just text me know!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

Updates About Caty: Mental and Physical Health

Hey beautiful!❤️ here is a Caty’s health update:

Physical update:

So I go to a GI (stomach) doctor because I used to have ulcers (I DON’T ANYMORE YAY!). Last time I saw him he did some blood work on me and my liver levels were bad. The other day I followed up with him and before I saw him I did some more blood work. The other day he said my liver levels look better but my ESR levels were VERY high. The ESR levels mean that I have inflammation in my body.

Having high ESR level means one of two things:

I have liver problems:

Which means I would have to have a liver biopsy and go down a dark and rough road.

Or instead of having fibromyalgia, I have arthritis.

I am REALLY hoping it’s not my liver and it’s arthritis. Why? Because fibromyalgia is hard to treat. The medicines for fibromyalgia don’t help me.

If I have arthritis I could try new medicines, try new treatments, and get better (I PRAY I DO GET BETTER!)

Having arthritis could be the answer I was looking for. Yes I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia but there really is no way to diagnose fibromyalgia. Because there is no blood test to see if you have fibromyalgia. You get blood tests for everything else and then if you don’t have any of those things: you have fibromyalgia.

But there is a blood test for arthritis! There is better treatment for arthritis!❤️ I COULD FINALLY BE BETTER!!!❤️❤️

I

REALLY REALLY

Hope I have arthritis and not liver problems.

In two week I get more blood work done, and see my GI doctor at the end of the month. Then I will know (hopefully) if I have arthritis or liver problems.

I PRAY I have arthritis because this could be the answer I am and have been searching for, for the past two years I have been in pain (one day I will post my story don’t worry, just know I have been in horrible physical pain for the past two years) and I am still in pain. But maybe I could finally get better!😊❤️

physically:

I am in HORRIBLE PAIN.

The pain never stops and never ends. It’s exhausting.

Someday are better than others but everyday I struggle with pain.

I am really hoping that getting diagnosed with arthritis could really help. Maybe I was misdiagnosed when I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia.

Please pray that being diagnosed with arthritis is the answer to my pain problems.

Till I see my GI doctor, I just have to take everything, one step at a time, and one day at a time.

Mental update:

My bipolar, depression, and anxiety is pretty much under control.

When I am in a lot of physical pain I do get depressed. But it’s situational depression not chemical depression.

Depression is depression and it sucks.

When I get depressed I want to not go anywhere or do anything. So I have to still do things even when I am depressed and hurting because that’s life. Life doesn’t stop for fibromyalgia or depression.

My medicines are good I just saw my psychiatrist yesterday.

Again with depression, I have good and bad days. But again, I am taking it one step at a time.

I am trying very hard to focus on the positives and have a positive mindset. Which is a struggle within its self. But I am making it💜

Thank you for listening to Caty’s health updates!

Have a blessed day!

I love you so much!❤️

-xoxo Caty💖

Devotional: Identity

Identity.

Maybe right now, you are really struggling with negative self talk, bad body imagine, low self esteem, no confidence, and you don’t know what to do with your identity. God wants you to put your identity in Him.

For many years I have struggled with my identity. I put my identity in being depressed because of my mental illnesses. I called myself: “the depressed girl.” That’s all I was, a depressed girl. Since I got diagnosed with fibromyalgia last year I defined myself by that. But that’s not what God wants. God wants me to put my identity in Him and He wants the same for you.

Your identity is not what your parents think of you, what your friends think of you, what social media say you are, but your identity is in Him.

In God, you are so loved. God sent His one and only Son to die on the cross FOR YOU! God loves you so much that He knows you are to die for (John 3:16). NOTHING can stop God’s love for you, not even death! (Romans 8:38-39)

So how did I put my identity in God?

I started praying for God to help me change my identity, I couldn’t do it without God. God helped me stopped believing lies that my illnesses tell me. I am not a “depressed girl.” I am not fibromyalgia. I AM NOT MY ILLNESSES! My illnesses DO NOT DEFINE ME. Your illnesses, flaws, or faults DO NOT DEFINE YOU! You are not your illnesses!

God defines you! Here is what God says about you:

You are beautiful. (Psalm 45:11)

You are unique. (Psalm 139:13)

You are loved. (Jeremiah 31:3)

You are special. (Ephesians 2:10)

You are created with a purpose. (Jeremiah 29:11)

You are cared for. (Ephesians 3:17-19)

You are lovely. (Daniel 12:3)

You are precious. ( 1 Corinthians 6:20)

You are strong. (Psalm 18:35)

You are important. (1 Peter 2:9)

You are forgiven. ( Psalm 103:12)

You are protected. (Psalm 121:3)

You are chosen. (John 15:16)

You are mine. (Isaiah 43:1)

Stop believing the lies from the Devil and believe what God says about you. Start praying and God will help you change your identity. But YOU have to take the first step. YOU have to go to God.

So what are you waiting for? Run into God’s arms today!

Verses:

“’I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. ‘” Psalm 63:3-5

“’Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord , who has compassion on you. ‘” Isaiah 54:10

“’See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure. ‘” 1 John 3:1-3

“’For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, ‘” Ephesians 1:4-8

Prayer:

Dear God,

I pray that you help me put my identity in you. Help me stop putting my identity in what people think of me, my looks, my illness, my flaws, my faults, or social media. Help me to know who I am in Christ and help me grow closer to you.

I thank you for all my many blessings and for Your Son.

In Jesus’s name, I pray, Amen!

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Hey beautiful! I hope you are having a wonderful day! Thank you so much for reading! I love you so much❤️

My Wattpad:

https://my.w.tt/wsXquMUx9T

-xoxo Caty❤️

My Story

Hello everyone!❤️

This my story:

I grew up with two loving and supportive parents. My little sister was born when I was seven. I grew up in a Christian home. I got saved when I was five but I didn’t truly understand what it meant. Fast forward to when I was thirteen is when I got saved and baptized. Life was great for me. I had three close friends and now a boyfriend. Life was good. Then, everything changed.

I started sleeping all the time, I quit my karate class, started feeling sad all the time. I was always a happy kid, but that changed. I had thoughts of suicide and even attempted it. I had thoughts of cutting but I never cut because I hate the sight of blood. All this went on for six months because I told my parents. I will never forget that day. I sat my mom down and said: “mom I want to cut myself.” So my parents freaked out. They had no clue what to do. I went to my doctor that Monday and spoke with a lady from a mental hospital. That day I went into a mental hospital for the first time. It was so freaked out. The doctor put me on an antidepressant and I went home a week later.

When I got home, I became manic because I was on an antidepressant without a mood stabilizer. With people who are bipolar, they HAVE to be on antidepressant and a mood stabilizer. So I was depressed, suicidal, and now manic. My mom found me a psychiatrist and a therapist. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder (depression) and general anxiety. So I went back to school and was miserable. I became obsessed with my boyfriend.

Now my memory gets a little fuzzy from here. I remember was I was going to break up with my boyfriend and all my friends supported me breaking up with him. So I broke up with him but then got back together with him. I left my friends for my boyfriend. One of my friends couldn’t handle being my friend because of my mental illnesses. I lost all my friends but one and I was still with my boyfriend.

Fast forward some and I am fourteen. I am still suicidal and depressed. I haven’t talked to God since I got depressed. I end up going back into a mental hospital. I am also VERY angry so I was so mean to my family. I am still with my boyfriend.

Fast forward some more and I am fifthteen. I am still suicidal and depressed. I am still with my boyfriend. But then something happens. My boyfriend’s granddad died and my boyfriend became abusive. He would call me names (names I don’t want to repeat), his family called me names (names you don’t want to hear). He would hit me, push me into lockers at school, and tell me if I break up with him he would kill himself. So of course I stayed with him. Now I am being abused and still haven’t told my parents. I end going back to a mental hospital for the third time now. But that summer I finally end it with my boyfriend. YAY!

Now I am sixteen going into my tenth grade year in school. I start dating another boy. He is not a Christian and honestly I did NOT need to be dating him. I was very far away from God and very depressed. I end up having sex with him. I still regret doing that, to this day. But we end up breaking up. I was a little sad but not too bad. Now I am so miserable. I am still suicidal and depressed. But one night I make a deal with my mother. That if I go into a mental hospital, she will pull me out of school and homeschool me. The next day I go to a mental hospital for the fourth and final time. When I get out of the hospital, I finally start to get better. I go see a new doctor who diagnosed me with bipolar type 1, major depressive disorder (depression), general anxiety, and social anxiety. I love my doctor, therapist, love being homeschooled, and I start to get better. I haven’t talked to God in years but then I start going to a new church. I join the church’s worship team and rededicate my life to God. Thing are going good.

Now I am eighteen and I start to get depressed again. I become suicidal and depressed. I don’t end up going to mental hospital. YAY! I graduate high school which is a HUGE thing for me because I never thought I would live to see that day.

I am nineteen. I am still depressed and suicidal. I am on a TON of medicines. I am still seeing a therapist and a doctor. I am not starting college in fall because I need to get better first. When I see my doctor in two weeks I go get ECT treatments so I can get better. But thankfully, I am so close to God. I am single and plan on being single. Now I am writing and focusing on getting better. I am still depressed and suicidal but I will NEVER give up.

After ECT treatments I start to get better! Yay but then, everything changes. I start to have physical pain: body hurts, back hurts, legs hurt, and I am in constant and unbearable pain. I go to doctor after doctor and about a year of not knowing what is going wrong with me: I get diagnosed with fibromyalgia. It is a kick in the gut. I struggle with depression due to being in constant physical pain. I try a ton of medicines and none of them work. I go to a chiropractor and it does work. I go gluten free and sugar free. I get massages and they help for a while but then I go back to pain.

Currently: I am 20 and still in constant physical pain. I still struggle with depression but it’s much better. I am finally close with God. I am in college and major in English.

So that’s my story on another post I go into more about what I am struggling with currently but I hope you enjoyed!❤️

Thank you so much for reading! I love you so much❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

Devotional: Purpose

Hey everyone! I am sooo exhausted from being sick and editing my book. I was going to write my story but I am to tired so now you guys get to read one of my devotional. I hope you enjoy❤️

Purpose.

Maybe right now, you are in college and trying to figure out what to do with your major. Maybe you are still in high school and everyone is asking you what you are doing after high school. Or maybe you are just lost and don’t know your purpose in life. Listen to me: take a deep breathe and relax. If you don’t know your purpose in life yet: that’s okay! I have ideas that might just help you find your purpose.

One of my favorite writers, podcaster, speaker, and business owners is named Jordan Lee Dooley. (She is amazing! I have all her books and her podcast is called “She Podcast” you should totally check it out. I love it) Her new book coming out is called Purpose. On her podcast she was talking about how a lot of people don’t know their purpose from God. But instead of sitting around and waiting for God to tell you your purpose, go out and start trying things! Give yourself permission to try things and see if you like it. Sometimes God doesn’t call out to you and say: “this is your purpose. This should be your major in college.” Sometimes you just start trying things and see what you like.

Story time:

I have always loved writing but I discovered that I could actually write a book when I started writing Jesus Saves Daily Devotions. I never thought in a million years that I would finish it. That I would find out that writing is my love and my passion. I figured out that writing devotionals is my purpose. I would have never have known that writing devotionals is my purpose if I didn’t take a leap of faith and start writing.

God tells us that for everyone of us, He has a plan and a purpose for our lives. Maybe your purpose is encouraging others, to be a teacher, to be a mom, to be a writer, to go to college, to be a hairdresser, to start a business, or just anything.

My advice to you: if you don’t know your purpose, pray to God, and ask Him to show you your purpose. But instead of sitting around and waiting for God to answer, get out there in the world, and try some things! Write that book, build that business, or change your major. You will never know what you like and don’t like if you don’t try.

God will lead you where ever you need to go. Just relax, grab His hand, and trust in Him.

Verses:

“God is our God forever and ever, and he will guide us until we die.” Psalm 48:14

“With your unfailing love you lead the people you have redeemed. In your might, you guide them to your sacred home.” Exodus 15:13

“Jesus spoke to the people once more and said: ‘I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.” John 8:12

Prayer:

Dear God,

I pray you should me my purpose. Grab my hand and lead me where I need to go. I will follow you Lord and trust you. Help me a take that leap of faith and start trying things.

I thank you for all my many blessings and for Your Son.

In Jesus’s name, I pray, Amen!

Reflection:

Where is God leading you? Take that leap of faith and God will guide you!

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Thank you so much for reading! I love you all so much!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

Welcome! About me❤️

Hey everyone! I am Cathryn aka Caty Lyle. Welcome to my blog! On my blog I will be writing about my writing, writing tips, publishing, Wattpad, Chronic Illness, Crocheting, Mental Illness, cats, coffee, health, Jesus, Christian Devotionals, love, life, and so much more💜 I am so excited for you to follow me on my journey with this blog💖

Here are some facts about me:

1. I am a Jesus Lover🙏🏻 aka a Christian

2. I am Cat Mom🐱 I have three cats: Spike, Little, and Crazy

3. I am a crochet queen🧶 I make blankets, scarves, hats, and doilies.

4. I have mental illnesses: bipolar type one, major depressive disorder (depression), general anxiety disorder, and social anxiety.

5. I have a chronic illness: fibromyalgia.

6. I am 20 years old, I turn 21 in May!💖

7. I am a college student and my major is English.

8. I am a writer and Wattpad writer🧡 here’s the link to my Wattpad account:

https://my.w.tt/hfUUPJzoZT

9. I write: Christian Fiction, Christian Devotionals, Christian Nonfiction, Nonfiction, YA Romance, poetry, NA Romance, and you can find all my books on Wattpad🧡

10. I am also a singer! I sing on my church’s worship team💖

11. I love acting and doing musicals.

12. I LOVE wearing my pj’s and staying home❤️

13. I am addicted to coffee☕️

That’s all about me! I hope you enjoyed and can’t wait to see you in my next post❤️

Find me on:

Instagram as @catythewriter

Twitter as @catythewriter

Facebook as Cathryn Lyle

Facebook Page @catyloveswriting

Wattpad as @catyloveswriting

Tumblr as @catyloveswriting

YouTube as Caty Lyle

Thank you for reading! I ❤️ YOU!

-xoxo Caty❤️